I make a lot of mistakes, but I try hard not to repeat them. So this time, I'm documenting!
So, about today...
Good thing
At the gym today, I ran into a few of my "fitness friends." These are girls I met through competing, at the gym, and on Instagram through my fitness account. Over the past week, I have been overwhelmed by my network of strong, supportive, amazing women from every part of my life who lift me up when I need them--even when I don't ask for help like I should.
The first couple months of working out at the gym (instead of home), I was terrified and kind of embarrassed. I kept my eyes down, headphones on, and tried not to let anyone see that I was looking up YouTube videos of how to do the exercises my trainer gave me. It's a pretty amazing feeling to walk into the gym now and be able to give sweaty hugs to other strong women on their own journeys to build strength--physical and otherwise.
Bad thing
It feels like I have been working out all day. I didn't wake up early enough to knock out the whole thing in one long session, so I had to split it up. That's not so bad, except it starts to feel like a mind puzzle figuring out the timing of meals in relation to the next phase of the workout. And I still haven't showered. Gross.
What I learned
I worry I won't be ready for my October show. But today I decided not to stress about that and just give 150% over the next ten weeks. If I am not ready, I will keep training for a later show. It's that easy. But if I'm not ready, it won't be for lack of trying. I can do this. I am doing it. I'm going to beat the girl that stepped on stage in March--and I think it will make her proud.